I dislike goodbyes.

I amaze myself sometimes at how I get so attach to people whom I barely know even and care about them (not that they know since it might potentially freak people out) and I actually feel sad when they leave.

I think about a lot of people though I don't talk to them on a regular basis, not even rarely and even if I think I'd not ever talk to them again. It just feels a little weird especially when time passes by and you figure they'd have created a good life for themselves surrounded by their bunch of friends whom they share stuff with and you become one of those people they used to know. I realise the wall people build around them and the secret key a few possess to whom they share stuff with. I dislike shallow talk especially those that make up for the otherwise awkward silence but I suppose its unavoidable.

At times I dislike myself for caring so much cause it hurts in a way. I guess I still hope to be able to talk to everyone like how things use to be though I understand how hugely impossible it is, but I can still wish, can't I? sigh... I miss all my friends.

I resign to the occasional newsfeed and updates on the various networking sites to hear a little about them and hope they are happy and hopefully one day we'll be able to sit down and talk once more, honestly sincerely without the facade everyone's building up. Sometimes I wonder why people mean so much to me... the lengths I go to for some... it's really silly at times but I suppose that's just me.

p.s. transformers 2 was good! =)